Yeah, it's been a very off week for me. I've been lax on my gym efforts and well lax on life as a whole when I slide into these massive depression boughts. Work became overwhelmingly frustrating a few days ago when I was already having personal issues to work through and well... needless to say; we all have a breaking point. I broke down, cried and almost had to quit my job. I literally spent one entire day off on my couch in and out of sleep. I've zero, zip, zilch energy or motivation to do what I normally strive to do for myself, for the last few days. Normally I at least hit my treadmill for a good 25 to 40 minutes at minimum just to keep up my exercise habit formation. Yes, you do need to form the habit and keep on it or it will go away. That is no lie. Don't let that phrase bring you down too much though. I went through a period of 3 months where I stopped working out altogether a year ago and I've bounced back from it and well. Just keep on returning and don't beat yourself up too hard and you will have some success.
Anyhow, got back on my horse today, after a week of eating nearly an entire pizza one night, drinking like a tank another and having my boss take me out to calorie laden Olive Garden last night. Do I regret any of it... honestly no and you shouldn't either when you break away from doing the "right thing" It's very unrealistic to think "I can be perfect and if I'm not then I'm a failure." Just gotta be able to swing back from the lows that life does give us and continue forward for yourself. Wanted to get to the gym today but I procrastinated this morning terribly and have opted for my home workout instead since I have a long drive later this afternoon to see a friend out of town. I'm actually writing this in my rest period I give myself between my initial treadmill power walk and starting my light free weight routine. I completed 30 minutes on my treadmill and am doing back, shoulder and bicep exercises today. Actually I plan on throwing in some deadlifts as well since I haven't had a proper leg exercise in almost 5 days due to my funk period.
Just saying, don't give up folks and don't deny yourself life either. You know what I had this morning, half a piece of Irish Car Bomb cake and a mocha coffee. You know what... I live life pretty reasonably these days despite how it may seem. I started out at 245 pounds. Keep in mind I'm 5'4" and carried a majority of that weight straight on my belly and upper thighs. I did have cankles but my massive stomach made them dwarf in appearance. I wore size 52 men's pants stomach wise. I now wear size 36 gladly on my naturally seated pant area a few inches inches below my natural waist line. I actually had no defined shape left to my body when I was that heavy, no waiste line... just wide breasts that were like fat pancakes and a massive stomach, double chin and fat legs. I was all very ashamed of it all and thusly myself, even has a person on the inside I felt like garbage at my worst. Also a good note to you folks: the natural waist is seated much higher than people realize, it's right below your chest, mine is measured at a 32 inches but most modern clothes are much lower waisted than that. So when a mag-rag says my waist is this crazy small number... keep in mind they are NOT talking about where normal humans wear pants. It's a skewed perspective to make their article and person featured in it seem more impressive than they really are. Part of the unrealistic expectation syndrome that gets planted in our cultures heads unfortunately. Honestly, someday I dream of the possibility of maybe even wearing a 34 without it feeling tight on me. Hey you never know and when you meet one goal, it's good to put another in place.
Well have a great day everyone and I'll be glad to banter more at you very soon and tell you how my home weight training went for me today. Ciao for now folks!
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